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Been so long

Thu Dec 11, 2008, 10:48 PM
Okay.

I'm alive. Barely. lol.

It's been so long - and I believe I need to apologise to some people. Mitch being one of them. Let me start...

I'm bi-polar, k? So, I went to the doctor and said, "Look, I'm fucking tired of the ups and downs of this, help please?" So - He gave me a medication.

Ohh, it killed me. I almost commited suicide after the first two days. I HATED myself and I felt lonely and afraid. I cried. Then, I lost all interest in ANYTHING and EVERYTHING. I stopped taking pictures, I stopped drawing, I stopped doing ANYTHING. I didn't work with my horses. I was a vegetable. So, a month later I went BACK to the doctor and said, "I don't have emotion anymore. Is this normal?" He said, "Oh hell no." So he put me on another one. This one works, but I get MASSIVE migrains. They hurt like a mofo. So, I have to go back AGAIN, and try something else.

I work in a hospital now, more hours, more pay. I never have time for anything anymore.

I'm alive at least...

  • Mood: Miserable
  • Listening to: S.E.X - Nickelback
  • Reading: Nothing atm
  • Drinking: Dr, Pepper

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  • Current Residence: A ranch! It's freakin' awesome, dang it!
  • Interests: Drawing, writing, reading, music, animals...
  • Favourite movie: Pride and Prejudice
  • Favourite band or musician: Incubus
  • Favourite genre of music: Everything ^^
  • Favourite artist: Moe. He's AWESOME!! Ms. Butler, Janine, and Rachel.
  • Favourite poet or writer: Christine Mehring, my mother
  • Favourite photographer: Rodney Mehring, a.k.a my Dad. And Alysha!
  • Operating System: PC
  • Shell of choice: ...Uhh...seashell?
  • Wallpaper of choice: Cool ones!
  • Favourite game: Heros of Might and Magic
  • Favourite gaming platform: PS2
  • Favourite cartoon character: Kyo-kyo Shoma
  • Personal Quote: Drawing isn't about making an exact replica. It's about seeing whats there and putting it
  • Tools of the Trade: Pencil, Paper, and my camera!

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Heya <3 haven't talked to you in awhile. Hope you're doing okay!

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haiiiii <3

wazzup? :3

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Hai!

Not much, joo? :D

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meh, studying for a science test :dead: seriously can not think right now

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Ehh - I hate science. :(

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really? :B Science is the ONLY subject that really interests me this year

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